As a person who used to be sensitive to all the tastes and smells, living in a body which does not have these functions seems like being imprisoned in a place where no exit exists. There is no freedom for me while confronted with the same body structure that used to empower me. The first meal I had after I lost my taste was a dish mixed with beef and broccoli. Chewing those carefully cooked ingredients now became an evil tryout. Each bite spoke to my incompetence directly and tortured my limited tolerance by its humiliation. My taste dumped me and I had no chance to do any begging but could only wait for its return. The missing piece of my lived body experience calls for its inquiry of pursuing completeness. Merleau-Ponty uses the term “body schema” to describe the “situational spatiality” of things in contrast with their “positional spatiality.” He argues that our body has a “situational spatiality” that is oriented toward actual or possible tasks (102). Thus, the meaning of our body depends on how it is perceived from our experiences. In other words, the concept of bodily experience is always half-done at present and its meaning remains to be accomplished in the future.
Keyword: body schema, situational spatiality, belief, emotion